It’s human tendency to be curious, and in a world that rewards planning it’s easy to find ourselves asking questions about our future (or getting a lot of questions from others). A friend of mine (Rusty, who’s on the World Race right now) touched on that – asking who, what, when, where, why, how– in a recent blog. It made me think about all the questions I’ve been asked recently, and my answer for them all…
I don’t know.
I’ve found myself saying those three words a lot over the past few months. They seem to be my answer for almost every question.
“How are you going to raise your salary to do mission work full time?”
I don’t know.
“When will you have all your support raised?”
I don’t know.
“Where are you going to live?”
I don’t know
(*note- I’ve been working in Gainesville for over a month now, and I still haven’t found a permanent place to live!)
“When are you going to go overseas?”
I don’t know.
“How are you going to accomplish everything you want to do?”
I don’t know.
“When are you going to get married?”
I don’t know.
“How are you going to ‘settle down’ and have a husband and a family while doing mission work?”
I don’t know.
I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know! The more I say it, the worse it sounds. I don’t know the answers to these questions- I have no idea! And each time I say it I feel more and more irresponsible…
And then I hear God say, (in His most sarcastic voice)- “Wow, Ericka…. you have no idea what you’re doing! GOOD THING YOU’RE NOT IN CONTROL! I AM.”
Ha! I love it when God gets smart with me. Talk about a relief!
I don’t know, and I’m not in control- I admit it- and praise God for that! I’m so thankful that the One who is in control can do it better than I ever could, and has bigger plans for me than I could even dream!
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”
Ephesians 3:20-21
To read more about “Embracing Uncertainty” (my new favorite concept- thank you Katie Myers for those words of wisdom!) check out an old blog of mine here.
